Archive for the ‘ transitioning ’ Category

The bubbles of society

19th November 2014 | 0 Comments

We may do our best to determine who we are, our gender, but at the end of the day, it’s society that truly determines it for us. We’re always told to be ourselves, to not give a damn what other people think, it’s not always that easy unfortunately. You see yourself through the mirrors of […]

Strength….. part 2

28th October 2014 | 0 Comments

Not really a followup to the last post entitled “Strength”, but that’s what this is all about ——————————————————————————————————– Mara says that I’m the strongest person she knows, and that is a big part of her love for me I don’t often feel that I’m very strong, I’m me not because I feel strong, but because […]

why is this getting harder?

23rd October 2014 | 0 Comments

This may come out as a victim puke, so be it, and fuck you if you have a problem with it Why does it feel like being trans is getting harder? Last year I’d have fucking strangers come right up to me and ask me about my gender, I knew it was wrong of them […]

Mirrors….. passing….. thoughts

17th July 2014 | 0 Comments

I glance at myself in a mirror, I still see a shadow on my face where the beard used to be. I approach the mirror, put my face a few inches away from it, puff out my lip. I hunt for the dark hairs, the survivors, the stragglers…. they’re nowhere to be seen. I pull […]


28th May 2014 | 0 Comments

Something I’ve noticed these past few weeks, my memories of him are fading no…. not of my ex boyfriend, that’s not the “him” that I’m referring to… although those memories are a lot less pervasive these days. He goes through my head at least once a day, probably more, but the thoughts don’t carry the […]

An anniversary of sorts….

2nd April 2014 | 0 Comments

So I missed my one year mark on the blog, I was super busy on the night of the 27th, moved some stuff into the new condo, got home super late. I had written something the following day, expecting it to be my next post, my little one year celebration post, but I wasn’t feeling […]

I met my Dad

10th March 2014 | 0 Comments

I tried to tell him in person that I was trans during christmas evening 2012, I never see him very often or regularly, and it had been on my mind for a while, especially that I was quite sure transition was a sure thing at that point, and I knew he had to be told […]


22nd November 2013 | 0 Comments

I was trying to write a title which made people sing that David Bowie song, Changes…. as in… ch ch ch ch chhaaaanges! anyways… One question that I get often from interested folks is, quite simply, what are all the changes that your body and personality have gone through since starting hormones?, how long did […]

an excercise

20th November 2013 | 0 Comments

I walk into the room as she does. We sit across from each other. – so, what’s up?. Been a little silent lately? She fingers the pendant hanging at the end of the cheap gold chain. A wooden teardrop. She loves that thing – life’s slowed down. I dunno…… the cold is setting in ya […]

Being Visible

10th August 2013 | 0 Comments

I touched upon this in a tangential way on my last post, but another thing that has been on my mind a lot, and also made an impact on my time at this (and the first) festival. being visibly trans especially when you’re camping in the woods and don’t really get to look your best… […]