Archive for the ‘ personal ’ Category


14th November 2012 | 0 Comments

What am I getting myself into? My emotions have been all over the place lately, understandable sure, but its still a tough ride. I’m switching between “what the fuck are you doing?!” and “I want my anti-androgens / injections / name change now noW nOW NOW NOW!!!!!”. I’m picturing myself as a woman, well, as […]


7th November 2012 | 0 Comments

Even through all of this crazy stuff that has been going on, I’ve still been telling people about me. My day to day friends all know, and so far have all been pretty great about everything. I spent a day out with an old girl-friend shopping, first time she had met Dawn, and to say […]

What a couple weeks……

6th November 2012 | 0 Comments

This easily ranks up there with one of the best couple weeks of my life, and one of the worst…. Since the 25th I’ve: Reconnected with an old friend, one of those people that may not have been there for long, but they made a huge impact on your life, and have their own little […]

A poem…..

28th October 2012 | 0 Comments

This was written for me a little while ago, I still go to it when I need some strength, when I need to feel that things will be ok, no matter where I end up…… We all are here to fly. To be free to love and find. Hand in hand. Ready to jump with […]


23rd October 2012 | 0 Comments

…. or the lack thereof It’s a classic stereotype, and a damn true one, the trans girl and the camera. Especially at the CDer stage, or the pre-going out and having a real life as a woman* stage, so many of us feel the need to document almost every single dress up session, every single […]

Catching up

23rd October 2012 | 0 Comments

I really didn’t realize it had been this long since I last posted, ah ben*. It’s been a weird, tough, yet not at all as tough as they could have been few weeks. Been out a few times, had a wonderful shopping day with an old girl-friend** who I just only recently came out to […]


1st October 2012 | 0 Comments

I hadn’t felt that in a while… I came to realize only afterwards that I hadn’t actually gone to a mall in boy mode in a couple of months. With my outings before my trip, then being pretty much fully femme during my trip, then once back here Becca took off for almost a month […]

Where is the line

22nd September 2012 | 0 Comments

At what point do I feel like a woman? Is it when my face is smoothed by powder?, is it liner, mascara, forms and a bra, a wig, at what point does the dysphoria fade?, at what point does the accessorizing do the job? The weather is crummy and I was stuck in the office […]


11th September 2012 | 0 Comments

I had to talk about this at one point didn’t I? Do I like the way I look en femme?, yes, in fact, I love the way I look en femme, I think I’m classy, sexy when I want to be, I know how to dress and move and don’t walk like a trucker (that… […]


6th September 2012 | 0 Comments

rolling my socks down so they made little bands around my ankles, thinking how pretty it was and how like all the little girls it was….. age 3ish….. already knew to hide what I was doing school uniform, shirt and shorts for the boys in the summer, blouse and skirt for the girls, shorts the […]