Archive for the ‘ meanderings ’ Category


15th February 2015 | 2 Comments

I guess I’m healing It’s really not very pleasant to be honest. I feel like I’ve told my story a hundred times now, and I know I’ll be telling it again before this is all over, before the healing is complete, before my heart feels what my brain knows, before I can truly let go. […]

Cyclical meanderings….. part 8….. Dating

12th December 2014 | 0 Comments

As I happen to be in a poly relationship, in love with a woman who is legally married, of course the idea of dating other people is on my mind. Furthermore, this is something that my girlfriend is actively encouraging me to do, I’m still not very comfortable with the whole concept of poly, and […]

Cyclical meanderings……. part 7…… telling stories

2nd November 2014 | 0 Comments

Those that know me, or have read my words, have often called me a storyteller. It’s something that not only do I enjoy hearing, or knowing about myself, it’s deeper than that, it’s how I see life, it makes up a big part of my perception of reality, we are all stories, partially written, partially […]

houses and rings……

24th October 2014 | 0 Comments

Kind of a followup, a part 2, to two other unrelated posts. Please note this occurred last weekend, before my anxiety shitfest —————————————————————————————————— It happened, I’m still unsure as to why, I’ve been trying to process it but my mind often wanders off in over analysis, twisty paths, and I forget the point of what […]

Cyclical Meanderings….. part 6….. poly

3rd September 2014 | 0 Comments

I’m seeing someone new, the one that was alluded to in my last post, from the pantsless party It’s been a whirlwind so far, the connection that we feel, the ideas and thoughts that we share, incredible, completely and utterly incredible. I sincerely have never felt this before. Yes I’ve been in love, deeply in […]

woo woo

26th August 2014 | 0 Comments

  Within constant chaos, one must evolve constantly Anything else is irrational ———————————————————————————————————— I think that may be why, during my previous life, when I fell into the static, I would eventually go insane, need to break out, get free…. that usually ended up in me doing stupid and unhealthy shit but the chaos can […]


15th August 2014 | 0 Comments

So…. it’s been an interesting month….. An old friend who I thought was supportive of me, someone from my past, who cheerleaded me through transition, who I’ve written about before, has become a TERF (google it if you don’t know, I don’t feel like getting into it)…. that kind of fucked me up a bit. […]

Cyclical Meanderings……….. part 5

27th February 2014 | 0 Comments

Just realized that it’s been eleven months since I started my hormone treatments. My first pill and patch were taken and applied on the 27th of March 2013. I guess I was going to write something like this at the one year mark, probably will anyways, but well, a lot can happen in eleven months. […]


10th August 2013 | 0 Comments

Loss can be debilitating, I think most of us know that, and we hide from this potential pain so much that too often, we end up losing everything else around us without even realizing it think of all of the couples that you know, the ones you know well. How many are truly happy?, the […]

Cyclical Meanderings…. pt. 3

3rd June 2013 | 0 Comments

I’ve been wanting to write for two days now, but too much is jumbling up in there to get out any coherent thoughts. So I’ll just start typing, see where it leads me I took a trip in the rain, thought it would wash me away, return me to my past, strip her from me, […]