Archive for the ‘ marriage ’ Category

New Beginnings….

17th June 2013 | 0 Comments

When I lost Becca, a ton of people, many of whom considered me family for years longer than I even knew her, turned their backs on me completely. I lost a family. I lose a friend who was the person I had known the longest in my life and still was close to (19 years…) […]


Speed bump…

17th May 2013 | 0 Comments

Well, things were going well, then I coughed a little too hard last Sunday morning, and before I knew it, I was on the floor gritting my teeth in pain. I lay there for a while straight out on the cold tile, then rolled over onto my stomach and tried to stretch, but no good, […]


Cyclical meanderings pt 2…….

15th April 2013 | 0 Comments

So, one day down, four or five more to go like I mentioned, I’m out in Halifax right now on business, and for me that means running around a warship fixing and setting up equipment…. yeah, I know. A trans woman working on a warship, this is gonna be interesting after transition…. Flying out here was tough, […]


Tough day

13th April 2013 | 0 Comments

Yeah, today wasn’t easy, I can guess at a few reasons why but…. well…. bleh, I’ll just write This is my first day that I’ve really spent alone, entirely, no work, no friends (well, none face to face), some online chatting with friends, but that’s it. Not sure why I decided to do that today, […]


An open letter to my Filipino family

8th April 2013 | 0 Comments

First off, hi I know some of you are reading this, and right away, I want to say, please, continue if you want to, I was surprised to discover this but very touched by the knowledge, and I think it’s a shame that this is only something that we can share, even if it is […]


what a day…..

4th April 2013 | 0 Comments

Tears, anger, hurt, remorse, regret, you know, just a regular Thursday at Dawn’s place…. Lots of stuff happened today, first time I felt anger (fleeting) towards Becca since this all happened, and I think it was a similar event for her as well, but we managed to talk, and not hug, and we tried to […]


it had to happen…..

2nd April 2013 | 0 Comments

Becca and I are through, in reality, me taking my first spiro and applying my first Estradiol patch was the final nail in the coffin, it just took two more days to actually come out. We spent the entire day on Friday talking, crying, questioning, we probably got six month of closure taken care of. […]


.. and rollin and rollin….

8th February 2013 | 0 Comments

Weeks have a tendency to slip by once one hits a certain age I’m less than a week away from finding out if I can safely deal with the medication that I’ll be taking, for most likely the rest of my life, in order to transition. Next Wednesday to be precise…. wish me luck. If […]


lies….

28th January 2013 | 0 Comments

I’m a liar, a big stinky fat poopoohead liar there, I said it all my life I’ve extolled the virtue of telling the truth, I’ve counseled people to stop hiding needs from their partners, their loved ones, the world, and since I do kick quite a bit of ass as an armchair therapist, the ones […]


A week of hell…..

11th January 2013 | 1 Comment

Worst… trip…. EVAR I’ve been out in northern Germany all week on business, usually I love business trips and I have a great time on them, but this one was hell. I think the only thing that made it bearable was that I was travelling with one of the managers that I actually get along […]