Archive for the ‘ marriage ’ Category

Full circle

23rd May 2015 | 0 Comments

It’s nice to be back out here in Victoria, a place that I wrote about a few times three years ago, a special place for me. Also, the place that he died. When I tell my story, I often say that he went to Victoria and never came back, I came back instead. After my […]

The Lesson

21st April 2015 | 0 Comments

I know my lesson now, why she came into my life, why I loved her, why I needed to know her and to go through this experience. One of the most powerful, and difficult lessons to learn I believe. Something that I still need to work on, something that will take time and practice, something […]

Catalysts and gratitude and closure

20th April 2015 | 0 Comments

There’s an old adage which goes something like: Each person that comes into your life does so for a reason, either you will change them, or they will change you. It all sounds lovely and pretty and spiritual, but when it comes down to reality, there can be a lot of pain involved in this […]

houses and rings……

24th October 2014 | 0 Comments

Kind of a followup, a part 2, to two other unrelated posts. Please note this occurred last weekend, before my anxiety shitfest —————————————————————————————————— It happened, I’m still unsure as to why, I’ve been trying to process it but my mind often wanders off in over analysis, twisty paths, and I forget the point of what […]


16th September 2014 | 0 Comments

For whatever reason, rings have always had a very strong symbolic power to me. They are more than jewelery, in fact, I don’t really consider them accessories like bracelets, or earrings or necklaces, rings are different. You’ll never see my hands covered in rings, my fingers are naked, except for the symbol that is currently […]

My house….. his house

7th September 2014 | 0 Comments

So I took Mara up to the old house yesterday, I wanted to check it out, haven’t been there in almost 2 months which in all honesty, isn’t that responsible of me. I didn’t expect the feelings that I experienced I do own it, technically, but in a way, it’s not my house, it’s never […]


11th December 2013 | 0 Comments

I dreamed about you last night, first time in a long time that happened. I was me, not him, and you looked at me. you saw me, something you haven’t done in months. and I saw you, and you were beautiful as you’ve always been, and always will be I got to spend time with […]


30th August 2013 | 0 Comments

So, I got divorced today… It was cold, sterile, the waiting room where I went over what was going to be said, the building itself, cold, heartless. We went through the ritual, stating our identities, why we were here what she wanted it didn’t take very long in all honesty, a few questions, a few […]

the D word

26th August 2013 | 0 Comments

when I tell people I’m going to be divorced by the end of the week, a lot of them, over half, are happy and congratulatory, some have tried to high five me and for whatever reason, it stings, it really hurts yes it has to happen, I guess the earlier the better in some ways, […]

I’m sorry

27th June 2013 | 0 Comments

It’s been a very emotional week or so, not entirely sure when it started, but it crept up on me. I only noticed when I look back that I’ve shed tears almost each day. Most of the time I’m proud to admit, they are tears of happiness. I look back over my past, the struggles […]