Archive for the ‘ Confusing ’ Category

dark shadow

24th October 2014 | 0 Comments

it really is as was made obvious by my last post, it’s been a tough couple of days. Said party that I’ve been invited to by my family triggered the everloving fuck out of me (yes by the way, that is how I talk, mm’kay?) anxiety is a voice in my mind, a voice that […]

woo woo

26th August 2014 | 0 Comments

  Within constant chaos, one must evolve constantly Anything else is irrational ———————————————————————————————————— I think that may be why, during my previous life, when I fell into the static, I would eventually go insane, need to break out, get free…. that usually ended up in me doing stupid and unhealthy shit but the chaos can […]


17th April 2014 | 0 Comments

Authors note: this piece makes very little sense, I realize that. I’ve been trying to get this out of my soul for some time now and haven’t been able to really figure out what I want to say, as if I’m dancing around the real issue without being able to put my finger on it. […]

Meaningless sex….

20th March 2014 | 0 Comments

bear with me, no fucking clue where I’m going with this one…. and for the prudish out there, you’re probably going to want to skip this…. I connected with my first lover just a few days before I had my first real day with my ex, slept with two new people in the span of […]

The Future

18th March 2014 | 0 Comments

is almost here house needs to be up on the market in 5 weeks time, some work to do on it, nothing dreadful thankfully the condo needs to be tweaked, a few fixes, lots of paint, some shelving and storage a few things to buy, a lot to sell …… I’ve moved a number of […]

Cyclical Meanderings……….. part 5

27th February 2014 | 0 Comments

Just realized that it’s been eleven months since I started my hormone treatments. My first pill and patch were taken and applied on the 27th of March 2013. I guess I was going to write something like this at the one year mark, probably will anyways, but well, a lot can happen in eleven months. […]

an excercise

20th November 2013 | 0 Comments

I walk into the room as she does. We sit across from each other. – so, what’s up?. Been a little silent lately? She fingers the pendant hanging at the end of the cheap gold chain. A wooden teardrop. She loves that thing – life’s slowed down. I dunno…… the cold is setting in ya […]


18th April 2013 | 0 Comments

Bear with me, drunk again, heheheh, only 3 martini’s, it doesn’t take me much Strength Before I headed out tonite, I made an account on POF, a clearly “I am not looking for anything serious, just to meet new people, and oh, by the way, I’M A TRANSSEXUAL AT THE VERY BEGINNING OF HER TRANSITION!” […]

I’m drunk

17th April 2013 | 0 Comments

and all I really wanna say is when your filters are destroyed by substances, whatever substances stops the acting, you can get a glimpse of who you are I was looking at myself in the mirror…. im on business, so I’m boy’ing it up for sure, but for me that means wearing my boy leather […]

Cyclical meanderings pt 2…….

15th April 2013 | 0 Comments

So, one day down, four or five more to go like I mentioned, I’m out in Halifax right now on business, and for me that means running around a warship fixing and setting up equipment…. yeah, I know. A trans woman working on a warship, this is gonna be¬†interesting¬†after transition…. Flying out here was tough, […]