Archive for the ‘ anxiety ’ Category

Meaningless sex….

20th March 2014 | 0 Comments

bear with me, no fucking clue where I’m going with this one…. and for the prudish out there, you’re probably going to want to skip this…. I connected with my first lover just a few days before I had my first real day with my ex, slept with two new people in the span of […]

The Future

18th March 2014 | 0 Comments

is almost here house needs to be up on the market in 5 weeks time, some work to do on it, nothing dreadful thankfully the condo needs to be tweaked, a few fixes, lots of paint, some shelving and storage a few things to buy, a lot to sell …… I’ve moved a number of […]

Cyclical Meanderings……….. part 5

27th February 2014 | 0 Comments

Just realized that it’s been eleven months since I started my hormone treatments. My first pill and patch were taken and applied on the 27th of March 2013. I guess I was going to write something like this at the one year mark, probably will anyways, but well, a lot can happen in eleven months. […]

the D word

26th August 2013 | 0 Comments

when I tell people I’m going to be divorced by the end of the week, a lot of them, over half, are happy and congratulatory, some have tried to high five me and for whatever reason, it stings, it really hurts yes it has to happen, I guess the earlier the better in some ways, […]

Life and Song

10th August 2013 | 0 Comments

A decent amount of time has passed since I last sat down to write. Thoughts and ideas have been bouncing around in the grey matter for a while now, I just haven’t had that urge, that need, to get it out on (virtual) paper. Even now, the urge isn’t like it was a few months […]

I’m sorry

27th June 2013 | 0 Comments

It’s been a very emotional week or so, not entirely sure when it started, but it crept up on me. I only noticed when I look back that I’ve shed tears almost each day. Most of the time I’m proud to admit, they are tears of happiness. I look back over my past, the struggles […]

Speed bump…

17th May 2013 | 0 Comments

Well, things were going well, then I coughed a little too hard last Sunday morning, and before I knew it, I was on the floor gritting my teeth in pain. I lay there for a while straight out on the cold tile, then rolled over onto my stomach and tried to stretch, but no good, […]

Eight weeks?

8th May 2013 | 0 Comments

Talked about a lot of stuff at therapy today, but primarily about the “when” of my social transition. When do I go to HR and say “The month of prep time starts now” when do I say…. GO… when do I start that 4 week timer to when Dawn walks into the office instead of […]


18th April 2013 | 0 Comments

Bear with me, drunk again, heheheh, only 3 martini’s, it doesn’t take me much Strength Before I headed out tonite, I made an account on POF, a clearly “I am not looking for anything serious, just to meet new people, and oh, by the way, I’M A TRANSSEXUAL AT THE VERY BEGINNING OF HER TRANSITION!” […]

I’m drunk

17th April 2013 | 0 Comments

and all I really wanna say is when your filters are destroyed by substances, whatever substances stops the acting, you can get a glimpse of who you are I was looking at myself in the mirror…. im on business, so I’m boy’ing it up for sure, but for me that means wearing my boy leather […]