Archive for the ‘ anxiety ’ Category

Feel your feels

31st May 2015 | 1 Comment

For the past number of months I’ve been seeing a similar thread in my readings, in my searching for inner peace and calm and personal growth, even my therapist has been trying to get this notion through my stubborn head. I may be a very emotional person, but I still have a mind that wants […]


15th February 2015 | 2 Comments

I guess I’m healing It’s really not very pleasant to be honest. I feel like I’ve told my story a hundred times now, and I know I’ll be telling it again before this is all over, before the healing is complete, before my heart feels what my brain knows, before I can truly let go. […]

Yet Again….

9th February 2015 | 6 Comments

So it happened, we broke up. I guess it was my choice ultimately, in that I could never be happy without resentment or a feeling of always competeing for time in the world that was offered to me, yet she was the one with the strength to say the final words. I could only agree. […]

What it feels like dating as a trans person

23rd January 2015 | 2 Comments

There is this club, it’s huge, it’s ridiculously huge, and pretty much everyone you know enjoys going there. Some go occasionally, some go often and make it a big part of their lives. Did I say how huge it is?, we’re talking multiple Olympic installations here, it would probably take you a couple hours to […]

Cyclical meanderings….. part 8….. Dating

12th December 2014 | 0 Comments

As I happen to be in a poly relationship, in love with a woman who is legally married, of course the idea of dating other people is on my mind. Furthermore, this is something that my girlfriend is actively encouraging me to do, I’m still not very comfortable with the whole concept of poly, and […]

You’re actually doing wonderfully

21st November 2014 | 0 Comments

Had a very rough day today, one that left me in the bathroom crying again I felt the spiral coming on, I reached out to a number of friends, knowing that Mara was busy with the inlaws tonight, and unfortunately, no one was available. Texting with her on the way home, feeling sad, angry, lonely, […]

Cyclical meanderings……. part 7…… telling stories

2nd November 2014 | 0 Comments

Those that know me, or have read my words, have often called me a storyteller. It’s something that not only do I enjoy hearing, or knowing about myself, it’s deeper than that, it’s how I see life, it makes up a big part of my perception of reality, we are all stories, partially written, partially […]

dark shadow

24th October 2014 | 0 Comments

it really is as was made obvious by my last post, it’s been a tough couple of days. Said party that I’ve been invited to by my family triggered the everloving fuck out of me (yes by the way, that is how I talk, mm’kay?) anxiety is a voice in my mind, a voice that […]

why is this getting harder?

23rd October 2014 | 0 Comments

This may come out as a victim puke, so be it, and fuck you if you have a problem with it Why does it feel like being trans is getting harder? Last year I’d have fucking strangers come right up to me and ask me about my gender, I knew it was wrong of them […]


17th April 2014 | 0 Comments

Authors note: this piece makes very little sense, I realize that. I’ve been trying to get this out of my soul for some time now and haven’t been able to really figure out what I want to say, as if I’m dancing around the real issue without being able to put my finger on it. […]